Numbers, Images, Nightmares, Insanity...
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Two Images of Trandnistria
I am reaching my breaking point, I am out of control, they won't leave me alone; day and night, awake or in dreams, they come for me, taunt me, there is no escape.
As a child, I was tormented by my lack of mathematical skills, after years of failing, a brilliant young tutor taught me to attach images as reminder keys to trigger the numbers, dates, and formulas that escaped my numerically challenged brain. Thirty years later, I'm still mathematically challenged, but numbers, especially numbers with images, I never forget.
I turn off the radio, avoid local news like the plague, but they always find me, they are always stalking, hovering, waiting for the chance to devour my very soul; leaving me to rot helplessly within the darkened walls of turmoil known as INSANITY.
2 days, 11 soldiers executed, 6 beheaded, 4 heads mailed to Juarez Police, 68 bullets, 3 dead, 15 September, 2008, 2 grenades, Morelia, 8 dead, 72 year old, 109 injured, 3 apprehended, 21 prisoners killed, 16 burned alive, 11 year old girl raped, 7 Independencia gang members.
I keep reminding myself: BREATH, RELAX, LET IT GO, FORGET; but they are persistent; relentlessly, consistently, bombarding, weakening me.
1146 killed in Juarez, 10 months, 57 executed, Tijuana, 9 days, 3896 narco death toll for year, 45,000 Los Rios, flood Villahermosa, 6 year old autistic boy drowned, 37 kilometers, flooded river, body, 20,000 lose jobs, 13.65 pesos per dollar, 5.7% Mexican stock market, $1900 million auction, 400 million, 74% Cemex. Work Oscar, take your mind off it, don't be a fool, this is insane. 35 hours school, 25 hours blog, 18 hours Google, 21 hours sleep, 5 mg Diazepam.
9 week old baby convulsions, 28 year old stepfather, 9 beers, 1 liter tequila, 162 bullets, Jalisco, 2 heads, 1 hand, 1 tongue, 3 coolers, 3 kioskos, 2398 kidnapped, 615 missing, $3.4 million, 4 bullets. 47,256 Chiapas, homeless, 38% extreme poverty, 8.9% interest, $6105 mortgage, $3.9 trillion, 2009, 25 suitcases, $18 million cocaine, 100 police, Jesus Zambrano, 16 narcos, Telmex 28% loss, 10 mg. Diazepam....You're losing it Oscar, Pull the fuck out of this, Pendejo. You're slipping, you're falling, BREATH, inhale, exhale, RELAX.. the numbers just keep coming.
Never ending, rape, mutilation, execution, decapitations, kidnapping, torture, pain, suffering, poverty, unemployment, devaluation, desensitization, immigration, numbers, images, nightmares, constant...MEXICO won't stop.
